JASMINE CHUA!!! what the hell were you doing with my blog..-stares-..*giggles*..sighz. im doomed tomorrow. REPORT BOOK. im sure to get a big scolding from my mom. been lost this whole week. firstly, ms sally wong said that we were going to get a terrible grade for PPL. then she started asking me whether i had enough to write for my final report..then she went on about having substance in your final report..and it's does not depend on the length..so on and so forth.[i shall not continue. too depressing]. i nearly withered on the spot. then i went home that day, i felt really really guilty. been slacking this whole half a year. like, i have terrible results, terrible conduct, everything's terrible. i have totally no guts to face my mother. i mean like..i FAIL my geography. what's she going to think. the only thing i dare to let her see is my english and chinese.. that's all. i mean like the rest is all b's and c's and D's..and my chinese also not say very fantastic or anything. and that the chinese test. got a shitified 72. even sing yean's got 78. im like so shi bai in everything i do. it's not that i cannot do. i CAN do it. it's just that i didnt put in the effort to do. it's been slacking for the whole first semester. and i think now it's like TOO late to save. i mean like, PPL's in july. and like i only have half a year more to go. just as tang lao shi said. maybe i really deserve it. i dunnoe what do..im really really lost. sometimes i really like just jumping off the building.

I THINK IM GOING TO HAVE A MAJOR BREAKDOWN SOON

just wished that she would care. or at least know how i feel. she's lost in her own world. and i cant seem to enter her world. just wished that there would be at least someone to share this with. but there's no one out there, my world's so lonely. if only there would be someone to lend me shoulder to cry on. i dont want to go on crying myself to sleep. if she's reading this, i just want her to know that i need her. [oh well, but how would she know?] sighz.

IM SUCH A FAILURE